diary.lost.in.the.desert

2007-12-23T19:30:00.000+08:00

hokay i admit.

i am a VERY lazy fellow. all those who agree please hands up! enough to form kallang wave already =X

it's been a month or something after A's! thanks to zhiyun for helping me cut my taxi costs during that period! =D oh but i can't help but think, (constantly!), did i do well? i will NOT be able to take it when the results are out. imagine waiting to see mrs leo (or whoever your teacher is), and when you finally do, in 10 seconds you'll probably know how your life+future will be mapped out. just like that. click. snap. i feel like throwing up.

HOKAY! throw that picture into the pile of notes you've neglected since A's ended! grr.

WHERE IS MY PROM DVD! twelve dollars leh! cheat my money.you people promised to bring it to bishan mrt for me!

prom was indeed a cool experience. from the shopping, to the night itself, i had alot of fun! after combing shopping malls for days, i got to know how girls get their exercise from shopping. but it was fun! and it was a chance for me to spend more time with the people i miss most right now. like i always say, it's the company =)

oh and thanks to all you guys for helping me make up my mind throughout the whole shopping experience! hey who has the photos of martin in... SKINNY PANTS! please please please upload on classblog! i think everyone should see how errrr... TIGHT martin's ass is! then you'll know what is qian2 tu1 hou4 qiao4! =D

anyways, on prom day i woke up with a fever! i rushed down to the doctor's and got an injection first thing in the morning, and then went to meet up with cherngchu and changboon to go make our hair. yingqun and martin came later. poor yingqun already begging his hair to kuai4 gao1 zhang3 da4, the hairstylist still went to cut it! don't worry lar yingqun, nobody say not nice! =D

after that we all went back to rifeng's house to prepare for prom. we bathed, groomed, and after crowding the toilet and using up every square inch of rifeng's tolet mirror (martin took up the bottom half, the rest of us take up the other half =D high five nengjie!), finally, prom!

it was so fun ADMIRING the girls' make up =D kk, prom night cannot be narrated wan, so let's see some pictures from my super duper TWO MEGAPIXEL nokia camera arh!

this is me, rifeng and zhexi, AND PROM KING! =D

here's changboon, yingqun (ultra short hair! kuai4 gao1 zhang3 da4!) and 06S66's beloved mrs leo!

here's mrs leo and most of the guys in my class! there's zhexi cherngchu prom-king-jaryll nengjie martin meiyuan rifeng and me!

here's me and my kfc-best-buddy-meal partner, wong eugene! and he forms part of THIS (see below) rocking group playing on stage!

okay lar wth cannot see their faces.

here's a very nice photo of the so-called "4 da4 mei3 nu3s" in my class, serene huixin zhiyun and biqing, and me! biqing the bride! =D

and here's our table! for more photos, go to our class website! after prom night, we took cabs down to clarke quay there but we didn't go into attica. i don't know about the rest, but those kind of noisy overcrowded alcoholic lifestyles isn't for me. i had a 10 dollar fruit punch when we went to forbidden city (10 dollars can buy me a tonne of fruits lar) but i was sick lar, so i couldn't share that jug of whatever-beer-they-ordered-at-forbidden-city with them. after that, we headed to rifeng house where we watched chuck and larry (i fell asleep on the sofa) and left first thing the next morning.

post prom. cherngchu and xingzhou left singapore separately =( we had farewell dinners with them.

then we had our class xmas party with the junior class at jaryll's condo! hokay there was only a third of them.but we still had fun! we had dinner, played games, watched man u vs liverpool (WHICH MAN U WON) and some of us stayed overnight to watch arsenal vs chelsea.we played mahjong and winning eleven, and finally fell asleep by 5 something.i grabbed the sofa =D

here's our photo! 07S66 (the smartest) and 06S66 (the funnest). who's that aunty in front of jaryll???

that's us during games. i'm thinking damn hard.

EH EH EH DON'T JEALOUS OF ME! =D with the 4 queens - queen of clubs, queen of diamonds, queen of hearts and queen of spades! EH WHERE'S THE QUEEN OF AUNTIES!

why is rifeng so happy! =P

oh i forgot to blog about our class chalet! we had so much fun watching dvds, playing cards, going to the old changi hospital (maodun and xingzhou were so super scared all their noises and squeezing around made the place not scary anymore), riding bikes to changi airport, looking at man-girls (danny the man-girl magnet!), barbecueing and everything!

in case you're wondering, the one behind that frisbee is maodun!

i miss my class so much =( we love our 06S66 =) i'm so glad i had the chance to experience and share the ups (every single moment, no matter how small, that made us smile) and downs (i wonder why we're always in the bottom 5) with this wonderful group of people. i hope we'll have more outings soon.

huixin, yes, you are that auntie earlier, don't need to wonder anymore =D

between now and then,

till i see you again,

i'll be loving you,

love, me.

our class's fave song, i think =)

2007-07-21T10:28:00.000+08:00

the end was near, the end was here, it's over now.

the nationals this year marks our batch's swansong on the track. and oh my did we throwers do it with style! in 3 days, out of a maximum of 66 points we smashed and grabbed 63 points. tay n jieyu, on the very first day we pushed the lead so big it was already 2 digits. on the first day we made the stadium roar. by the third day when all our throws events are over, we already had 9 fingers on the championships.

throwers, i am so proud to have stood beside you guys for 6 long years. few people in this world can claim to have stood beside giants. i agree with our opponents - we are damn er3. yong n poon, kings of the ring once again. depin n shuo, im so proud and happy that you guys got your 1,2,3 finally. tay, we've plundered and raided cck for 4 years, bringing home gold and silver each and every time. i couldnt have asked for a better partner in crime than you. thank you guys!

the medals last a few years, you guys last a lifetime.

but track and field doesn't have 3 events only, it has 17. to the runners and jumpers, the rest of my batch, hi5! we've done it once again! every year for the past 6 years since sec1, together we have seen our team win championship after championship, preserving our record of never having lost our hold of the championship trophy, and we're only the 2nd batch to have done so! i think our relatively smaller batch have made us a more together unit than our juniors, and i won't forget you guys. cheers!

and i won't forget our night of drinking at the track :)

to the girls team, im proud to see you all put in a strong fight this year. hi5 for a nationals well fought!

okay j2s, we have yet another hurdle in front of us, and this one no amount of training at the track and salt centre gym can help us. let's put in the same, if not more, amount of effort we had put in for nationals. but don't forget that all mug and no play will make Jack a dull (but smart) boy! later grow fat, cannot cannot mug and forget about sports!

today is the release date for the last harry potty book! for harry potty fans like me, go get 1 if you havn't! for non-harry potty fans, just go get 1!

i had ns checkup on thursday. seriously, i salute the army, for always having the best ideas on how to use my time. :X apart from that, thanks for that holiday.

here's a joke for everyone. if you grab martin and shake him from side to side (remember, its side to side), what do you get?

CONG1 MING2. milkshake.

2007-07-02T11:59:00.000+08:00

wow it's been a "nong nong" time!

this june hols has been... nothing like hols! apart from mugging, training and the occasional outing and movie, i had the chance to take part in the 2nd SEA juniors track meet. and blew it. but nvm it was quite an interesting weekend. the best thing i liked about the event was the FREE adidas jersey with the singapore flag on it. go on, get jealous. the event was held at gombak stadium on a sat and sun, and everyone had to be there on both days, and with block tests looming at the start of the new term, i had originally planned to mug and lend my support at the same time. plan failed. on sat afternoon when scott competed, it was indeed a rare sight. when he and his fellow competitors came out of the call room (so much for "room", it was actually a tent that felt like a sauna, cheap way to get rid of those flabs) they were walking in a line and they actually looked like this:

first time scott was average! at the end of the event, we were invited to a farewell dinner at turf city. sheeet everything was seafood! refer to my "extras" column on the left. i ate abit, we drank abit, talked alot (we were so bored, we solved riddles and made that resonance sound with our glasses, and sang abit onstage (have u ever seen scott sing? it was more like that ogre in lord of the rings, with a mike). the funniest part of the night came when scott wanted to eat more peanuts and he told this china waitress "wo3 yao4 zhe4 ge4 dou4" n pointed to a peanut. im sure peanuts are dou4 dou4. here's a pic.

and here's a pic of yong's dog when we went to his house to peel prawns. yucks. again, refer to "extras" on the left column.

a week of block tests have passed. it was... as usual. 4 As. no problem. it's youth day today, and there's physics paper 3 tomorrow. im supposed to be studying. nationals start this thursday, and man m i scared. oh, yesterday my dad signed me up for the m1 student plan. cool, now whoever calls, i can talk rubbish n refuse to put down the phone for as long as i want. they're paying, hu cares! callers beware! call at ur own wallet's risk!

okay my spaghetti's calling me. remember to choose a side.

2006-09-27T10:13:00.000+08:00

i hate the way you make me miss

your laugh, your smile, the sound of your voice,

the scent of your hair, the touch of your hand,

everything about you... i didn't have a choice...

i hate the way you're not talking to me,

and even when you do,

you're always so pissed with me,

you won't even listen, no matter what i do...

i hate the way you think you're always right...

when you think so selfishly and leave me behind...

i hate the way i can't get you out of my sight...

and the way i can never get you out of my mind...

i really hate it...

i hate the way you make me put up with you...

your impatience, temper, even when it's so foul,

even when you're being really unreasonable too...

cos your smile after that makes it all worthwhile...

i hate it when you make me do anything for you,

willingly, wholeheartedly, i would try so hard...

so that i wont see you disappointed, or angry,

just hoping that you would not break my heart...

......

i guess it wasn't enough...

......

i hate it when you make me miss your laugh...

so much that you make me cry...

i hate the way you're hurting me...

and i don't even know why...

i hate it that you are the only one,

who can make me feel this way...

you are the only one,

who can take it all away...

i hate the way you picked me up,

and let me fall...

but mostly i hate the way i don't hate you,

not even close,

not even a little bit,

not even at all...

你说的我总做到...

就除了把你给忘掉...

2006-08-20T10:10:00.000+08:00

time flies by day after day,

but that night is still clear in my mind.

there isn't a night that i can sleep

without it playing over and over in my head.

there isn't a night that i can dream

without this pierced into my heart.

there isn't a morning that i can rise

without it all sinking into me.

was it something i did?

was it something i said?

i know how it feels like,

like i'm a million miles away,

even though i'm right here.

but i just want to say,

that i was never a million miles away,

you just had to open your door.

now i don't know where we're going,

i don't know who's shutting who out.

though it feels like both doors are closed,

i wished i can open mine.

i just want to protect

this taped-up paper heart of mine.

it's cold,

it's empty,

it's lonely without you here.

i just don't want to spend

one more night missing you.

i'm honestly sorry,

that i made you irritated at me,

that i made you unhappy with me,

that i made you feel miserable,

just by being with me.

i'm honestly sorry,

that i made you say those hurtful words,

that i made you close your door.

hey,

i don't blame you for being mad,

i don't blame you for making me sad.

i don't know what will happen

if i say this,

but i just want you to know,

that how we started didn't matter,

it was the moments we shared

after the start,

that mattered the most to me.

i just wish that i could believe,

that there's a day you'd open your door

and let me in once more.

but for now,

i guess i just need more tape,

for my paper heart.

how i wish

that the two words below

will come true.

2006-08-05T04:58:00.000+08:00

its been a week...

the most painful week...

i know you've moved on...

but i'm stuck in between...

i have so much to say to you...

i don't want to move on because...

we can make things right...

yes that's what i said...

we can make things right...

i'm just hoping for you to try...

don't give up on this so easily...

you & me...

this was our first time...

and when we meet something we don't know...

something we see for the first time...

we become scared...

and start to think...

you've thought about it...

you've even decided...

you've said that's what you want...

i know you saw that some things weren't right...

i know you were worried...

and frustrated over them...

you've thought about it...

went through the whole thinking process...

but i just want you to know...

one thing i've learnt from a r/s...

our r/s...

is that we should always try to 'thrash things out' together...

what's important is 'together'...

when i have my worries i should tell you...

when you have your worries you should tell me...

and with a little help from our bestfriends...

(cos i can't say we're both experts...)

we can make things right...

so please don't give up so easily...

now i'm here...

just want to let you know...

that we can set things right again...

i'm not just saying for the sake of it...

it's not just plain talk...

i just want you to know...

that we can set things right again...

you don't have to do it yourself...

you don't have to set things right yourself...

you just have to take the first step WITH me...

together...

a relationship...

something we both share...

i just want you to know...

that it's full of ups and downs...

we share the ups together...

now we should share the downs together...

thats what makes it so beautiful...

2006-06-30T11:40:00.000+08:00

*phew*

finally. blocks are over. and i have a five day weekend.

call me crazy. but i actually enjoyed the entire mugging process. all those hours spent entirely with you. and only you. from the early hours of the morning when your face lights up my day brighter than the sunshine. till the late evening walking by your side putting a beautiful end to a beautiful day spent with you. with maths chem physics and econs notes being the lightbulbs =)

incredibly, the existence of huge empty spaces in my papers even after three hours staring at them with a fully-filled pen and a half-filled brain, showing the probable kind of grades i will get, im not stressed out or depressed or even the slightest worried. im just relieved i can now put the burden of the blocks behind me for an even more important priority.

since sec one july has been an important month for me. no its not because its my mum's birthday.

its because, coming round the corner (in a week to be exact), its the andrenalin rush of another nationals experience.

i wake up in the morning without the usual daze. my mind gets unusually clear and firm --- it is today. when i go up the steps to the stadium stands where the chinese high contingent is, when i look around, i take it all in. to the right, countless clusters of track teams from the different schools. would-be competitors doing their warm ups, taking in nervous breaths, just waiting for the announcement for the commencement of their events. to the left, the magnificent track, all 400 metres of it, and the huge green field, where we will be, throwing our hearts out. i take it all in.

and when the time comes, when i step into the air conditioned reporting room my heart pumps faster than the fists of a boxer. my hands tremble and legs go numb as we all look at each other and make nervous conversation. its funny how when we meet in other competitions and we can talk and laugh and not hear this much nervousness in our voices. such is the weight of the tag 'nationals' in front of the championship name.

and when i finally step outside wearing the chinese high red and yellow (who's that in that awful looking suit?) track suit, the first step into the arena always comes with this thought --- this is it, where months of training, both sweat and tears (of joy, frustration or pure heartbreak) have brought my feet here. the shouts of encouragement from the stands ring in my ears as we march past, into the arena, where we take off our track suits from the different schools, put on our shoes, and thus it begins.

its been like this for two years.

im looking forward to it for the third year.

i still remember my first nationals experience, going in as an underdog. the estactic feeling of finally tasting my first victory. sweet. i was fourteen. it was a true fight to the end. the win came with a nice momentum build-up to a run and a final roar. the congratulations were sincere. the trophy never looked so gorgeous in its golden colour.

last year, at sixteen, i went into the nationals for the second time. an unlucky pull of a muscle in my elbow three weeks before the nationals was all i could think of. it hadnt healed properly. but it held. although i knew i could have done better had it not been for this untimely injury. another roar finished it off, making me the fourth chinese high boy to break the 50m barrier during the nationals in chronological order. amusingly, only the bottom of the trophy was gold. the top was a fanciful prism-like thing. relief was the overwhelming feeling.

this year. my third time. a second shot at the record. my elbow's intact. i can go for it. i will go for it. it will be another roar.

honestly, i can't wait for the same experience of climbing the steps up to the stadium. i've always enjoyed wearing the tshirt, jersey, track suit, with the chinese high name and the label of team champion as i walk into the stadium among the competitors. you get this dominant feeling. its a really good feeling.

it doesnt feel as if the whole world is against me. its exactly the opposite.

its me against the whole world.

this year, im not going to let you have the bragging rights for another consecutive year as the best. last year you popped into the scene with a shocking 5-7 on the score sheet next to your name. this year, im not going to let you have it that way again. and i have full faith in my seniors to put you down, because they are not going to let you have that way again. on thursday we shall see how you do it after three months of training. then on the following monday, i promise, it will be my turn.

there can only be one best. second-best is never as good as the best. never.

'one of the best' is bullshit.

its seven days to the qualifying. thats next friday. after that, on the following monday, it begins.

and oh yeah. good luck to the canoe girls for their nationals =D

2006-06-03T03:30:00.000+08:00

haha this blog seems so dead. so i shall listen to her and revive it =)

june holidays are here! for some it means studying for block tests. for some, yours truly included, it means studying for block tests AND preparing for nationals.

since i dont know what to blog about, shall just try to blog about training. for those who are disappointed thinking my revival post will be something grand and fantastic, wow im sooo apologetic.

so here goes...

training in the holidays are really tiring me out. three full days (spending the whole day in school training twice in that day) and two half days each week. sometimes i wonder why i chose to wake up early in the morning, pack my clothes and towel and soaps all squeezed into my poor bag, and drag my really tired looking feet all the way to bukit timah.

i could have followed in the footsteps of my fellow college teammates and train three half days a week. better still, they arrived really late yesterday strolling in and began their chit chat session which lasted the whole training session. sometimes, i begin to think, that i can see the reasons exactly WHY the coaches made such a decision to bring the majority of the jc1 athletes and push them down to save the fifteen year legacy of the b division at the expense of the a division title.

i am starting to think, that the coaches did not say that the a division athletes are lacking discipline, for no reason. but of course, there are a few exceptions, just that few athletes so dedicated to their events, coming down for trainings more frequently than the others, working hard to do their personal best. and i kinda respect them more.

i'm really envious of people in ccas where the team spirit is really strong, where every training you go there will always be your teammates training with you. you meet up with your teammates after lessons and go for trainings together, train hard together and sweat together and be there for one another during trainings, after trainings you slack around and chat together or go for dinners together and go home together. you push each other to train hard and not slack during trainings, your teammates make 'training' so much more than what the dictionary say it means, and best of all, you actually look forward to trainings. it used to be like this. remembering the days of old when we were in the high school, we used to do all that, we trained so hard together, we pushed each other to go for trainings, we could say we grew up together those past four years, spending nearly everyday together in the gym, at the track, forging strong bonds of friendships. i used to look forward to training. that was how it used to be.

now, i look elsewhere for the motivation to go for training. i can dare say that theres not much of a team to speak of anymore.

when the coaches announced their decision to kinda sacrifice a division to save the b division by pulling some jc1 athletes down, the seniors were talking about either giving up and totally slacking off, since they were predicted to lose anyways, or continue training for what one particular as-mentioned-before dedicated senior calls affectionately, "personal glory".

i think thats one reason for training.

personally, i really reject the idea of pulling me down to b division. i had so looked forward to competing in a division, where the competition is many times much tougher, and its my one and only chance of taking on my seniors. its like, in the past during b division competitions we used to lament and complain and bitch about schools 'playing cheat' by sending 17 year olds to compete when we can only send 16 year olds, unless the guy's already overaged. now, we are doing the exact same thing. to quote some fellow athlete, even if we do win the b division with this 'tactic', it will be a 'dishonourable victory', and we can be labelled 'cheats' in the eyes of our competitors.

ladies and gentlemen, we are losing our principles, all that moral bullcrap that school taught us, to save our face. NICE.

anyways, back to my senior's 'personal glory'. so one main factor that's dragging my exhausted and motivation-less body over to the track every morning in this holidays when i can actually slack all i want at home (believe me, training isnt all that compulsory for me afterall), is the smell of personal glory. i just want to compete for myself.

nationals is the traditional selection ground for the athletes who will represent singapore in the annual asean schools track and field championships, selection is based on the best athlete, the CHAMPION OF CHAMPIONS, among the a and b divisions. no, not separately, but both divisions combined, the best is selected. last year, i had a busted elbow during nationals, costing me an opportunity to compete in this competition. this year, i'm going all the way. i want to be that champion of champions. i think i can do it...

just like someone said, 'dream big'.

my goal: asean 2006

sorry if you find my ramblings on and on about training really boring. just that when i started rambling about training and cca, it all just came to my mind. when i think of something nicer to blog about i'll tell you! =)

for now, good night people! study hard for block tests!

the twenty eighth of april

2006-04-29T14:27:00.000+08:00

28th April 2006

this night we shared is just for the both of us to remember =)

so remember that i'll put in every effort to make this last forever

i'm just so glad that we are finally together

just you and me, totally lost in this sweet surrender

leave your doubts behind, know that you will always have me right here

when you're not around, know that my mind's thinking 'i'm missing her..'

and i will still love holding your hand even if it gets rougher

i will still think you're beautiful even if you get darker

so thanks for giving the both of us this chance to have each other

to keep your promises i know you will try your hardest ever...

this i believe in you... =)

`` the time of my life

2006-03-19T21:17:00.000+08:00

hey! man look at the time... i was bored after trying to mug for the econs timed assignment later... eugene sent me someone's notes (i have a feeling its xingzhou's...) and i tried understanding it but as usual... dammit econs is the first period... im dead... again... haha!

i was watching espn this afternoon and they had this show called the champions leauge magazine show or something like that... and they had this team of the year 2005 thing which i thought was really interesting... here's champions league's team of the year 2005:

GK: Cech (CHELSEA) (who else? seriously... dudek?)

DL: Maldini (MILAN) (the man's 37 and he is still in it?! wow... hey what happened to Heinze??)

DC: Terry (CHELSEA) (okay this is one solid rock... undeniable... can fight with Carragher...)

DC: Puyol (BARCELONA) (captain of the Catalans, this man deserves this place too...)

DR: Cafu (MILAN) (haha! why aren't ANY of the defense from the Champion team? their defense was solid rock too! until the final... hahaha...)

ML: Nedved (JUVENTUS) (this guy won this place three times in a row!!! cool!)

MC: Gerrard (LIVERPOOL) (yeah i agree... despite that little flop of a pass against Arsenal recently... he is seriously the world's best... and a really inspirational captain too!)

MR: Garcia (LIVERPOOL) (hey wait did i see wrongly?! yeah that was my immediate reaction... there's so many other candidates why him?!?! come on look at that dude at Betis!)

AMC: Ronaldinho (BARCELONA) (okay this one seriously no fight... he is the man man! who else seriously... Lampard arh? wait long long lohh...)

FC: Shevchenko (MILAN) (okay... yeah he's good... no doubts...)

FC: Eto'o (BARCELONA) (yeah man! this guy rocks! totally deserves this place too...)

so there you have it... comment all you want about it just remember it wasn't my choice line-up... so don't blast me about it... and if i can pick a man to manage them... what about Rijkaard huh? yeahh he's the man for it! that old man in Stamford Bridge is a *toot*...

okay ENOUGH about football...

so... yeah... i had a really short but nice holidays... and ended it off with a really beautiful weekend... and only you could have made it possible... from the moment i saw you as i walked down the stairs (the dumb escalator was on the other side... -.- )... i really enjoyed myself and i hoped you did too... although we might have gotten pek chek at some point... but heck it didn't ruin the night... i'll keep this with me forever... and we even have a momento... hahaha! and don't keep saying that you wasted my time cos you didn't... i'd rather spend the time with you... so yup... i just wanted to tell you that i had the time of my life...

and good luck with your mum... -.-

okay its four... two more hours and im awake again... shall try not to screw up my econs too badly... cya!

`` haunted by the ghost of you

2006-03-03T00:51:00.000+08:00

today i was cruelly reminded of you again... every single word they said played back the memories of the last quarter of 2005... those sad sad memories of a lost me struggling with a lost cause... your words that night was like a perverted and skillful master of the knife... slicing my heart... letting it bleed... your words did enough to leave this deep painful scar... it just wasnt enough to kill me... maybe if you killed me i might have felt better...

i gave you my heart and you scarred it... sounded familiar?

since that night when you said those words i lived through the days with a constant heartache... people close to you and me told me there was still that little bit of hope that never came... if that little bit of hope was a light at the end of a tunnel then this tunnel had collapsed... what hope is there when everything you did only tore my heart apart...

anyways... you died in my heart two months ago... all i saw today was the ghost of you...

two months ago i picked up the pieces of my heart and taped them together, waiting to give it to someone else...

dont worry i will not be haunted by you again...

wrapping up my 2005!

2006-02-27T20:59:00.000+08:00

hey! missed me? FINALLY i decided to use this sian sian time to revive my this place.the last time i blogged is...yeahh sec four annual camp! hahahah! then after that loads of stuff happened...i shall type ALL OF THAT into here! yepp so here goes!

yeahh after sec four camp was...sec four exams? hmmm...this exams period very sadd... =[ mugged for exams with a broken heart...but its okay! im fine now! oh yarh! after i came back from the perth trip i weigh myself...wah basket! 78 kg leh! WTH! then i everyday jus drink 1 packet of milo in school and keep going for cca and after a few weeks im back to my current weight...70kg! tho i still think its still too heavy...but heck! its better than 78! so u wanna know how to jian3 fei2 can come ask me! yep!

and then during dec hols...still carry that broken heart...BUT i took my mind off things by going for cca every day! EHH not that i no life! i also have another reason --- pacific school games 2005! it happens once every four years and last year it was held in melbourne...was damn excited! cos i was captain for our singapore combined schools team! lao3 da4 leh! first time i be lao3 da4! hahahah but aiyar...in the end the teachers give the feedback was like 'austin is very nice to everyone but is not fierce enough and very blur' WTH! nevermind i still had a very nice time! i totally miss our team and melbourne and the whole competition larh!

guy's team theres me, justin (man u r damn zhai! sec one only u go for this zhai zhai competition! and u only trained half a year and get nationals c div champ! u must jiayou and dun slack off yeah! lookin forward to you breaking my record boi boi!), nicholas (we are old liao buddy! hahahah looking forward to a smashing two more years wif u in track n field and lets kope more golds together! who cares if u screwed up in pacific games we can still work harder and try again!), zhuo yan (u damn zhai larh! get fifth in pacific games! and even broke your OWN nationals record! hahahah looking forward to greater stuff from you blur-cock!), wayne (u.are.one.siao.kia! hope u can bring more golds for hc!), stefan! (yoyoyo buddy! everybody this is THE stefan! one year younger than me and is so DAMN zhai in his jumps! compete in world youth before! and get gold in pacific games! hey man ur earrings damn cool! i MUST plead my mum to allow me to pierce my ears too! looks damn seh! anyways work hard and go for sea games and olympics yeah? go team singapore!) yeahh thats the whole guys team...

and then girls team...girls captain lay chi! (HEY! wahh u r my training inspiration! hope u meet ur target and make it to sea games! hope to see u in the next competition! and congrats once again for your gold in pacific games! it was a damn zhai experience to see u throw!), sihui! (hey girl! u r one year younger than me and you already are a champ! and you are a really great friend! hope to see ya soon! dun be disappointed by pacific games i also screwed up! get gold again this year!), and the sports school gals! (hey! sorry i forgot how to spell your names! but all the same i miss you fellas and hope to see ya soon in the next competition! all the way fellas!) oh and joscelyn! (this girl damn zhai get both gold for discus and shot put and break shot put record somemore! wah damn sehh! hope to see ya soon in the next competition!)

yeahh time to talk about pacific games...melbourne is damn cool! it was really cold and when i went to the field for competition i was frozen! each time its my turn all i wanted to do was just throw and hide under my track suit! damn cold! then the place we stayed in damn zhai...its like this boarding school where the team singapore guys (twenty plus people?) AND the entire team tasmania girls (hundred plus of them!) were arranged to stay! the tasmanian girls rock! they are damn nice and friendly and open and all that we totally enjoyed our stay there =P yarhh and i tell you all every night after competitions we have NOTHING to do...just watch tv, play cards, tok crap and if we are allowed, go out to the nearest kfc or 7-11...i love our walks in the evenings to the 7-11s and all that...the town damn quiet, the sun is not hot, the winds are really cold and freezing...DAMN ZHAI if you want a quiet time...and i love watching the basketball matches...team singapore basketball u guys rock! wish i could watch more of your games! ermm yeahh the stadium there is really big like kallang stadium like that...i met loads of amazing atheletes (spell liddat wan arh?) and their owning abilities...aiyar i just totally miss pacific games larh!

okay carn think of anything much about pacific games liaos...hahahah so shall talk more bout 2006 in another post! gort a dumb mental block now...carn think...yarhh so come back later for a new post from me!

2005-08-28T00:51:00.000+08:00

perth was damn nice! cold and shiok!

on the first day right we went on a tour around perth.the prison was cool.then sian we met up with the rest of the hundred odd people from other classes.

second day we went to icy creek camp.we went camping in the australian bush, which is basically a super duper huge forest larh.i did a flying fox! cool! our instructors braydon and chantel are very nice.they cooked stir-fried dinner for us and it is super nice! then at night we went star gazing! super nice! i missed it.staring at the stars.looking at heaven.lying on my back.without a worry and everything.in the cold night.zhai!

third day, morning wake up in our tent, super cold! everyone was freezing lorh.we went navigating through the forest and got lost =S hahaha.guess whos fault is it? gaobin la! haha.jk.we crashed through the forest like siao larh.we were so close to completing! just one stupid wrong turn and we got lost.for a whole hour somemore.so we had to chiong our lunch in the bus as we go for white water rafting! oh man it was really cool larh rafting! raft through a rapid.super cool! the water was freezing but so thrilling! i love it man.too bad only had two goes.then we play soccer in the cold.i like the cool fireplace.awesome! they taught us how to make a fire but we never made it.the marshmallow chocolate bbq thing was damn nice!

fourth day, we went to a farm.it was huge! one tenth the size of singapore larh.even the horizon was still their land larh.how cool is that?! then only like less than twenty people live there.deren actually let a baby cow suck his fingers like drinking milk liddat.siao! gross man.hahahaa.people dont go and smell derens hand okay!! then after the farm thing we went back to perth -- to eat chinese dinner.haha.it was okay larh.too oily though.then we go back hotel.hotel sweet hotel.

fifth day, we went to a park pick up rubbish.cip! bought a small cute koala figurine and a kangaroo one at their shop.then went strawberry fields and bought a chocolate nougat.one only.then we went to the desert! super cool! the sand was so fine!the winds were so strong and freezing and chilling! we went on a monster truck, which is actually a bus on monster wheels as tall as me.we went up and down sand dunes, super fun! the seats had suspension on them, so it was very fun.then we went sandboarding! oh man im hooked onto it! sandboarding is totally cool! its boarding down a tall sand dune lying on your stomach.super cool! i went three times! so sad had to leave.then we went back to hotel after another chinese dinner and played mahjong.btw we played mahjong till late at night last night too.

sixth day, our last sad day in perth.we packed up and went shopping in perth! i spent every single cent and still owe eugene ten aussie bucks larh.i bought chocolates, a new wallet and a pair of ripcurl pants.cool! afternoon, we went home.sighs.home sweet home.i missed the perth weather! although it wont last.but i miss winter.its like a super huge aircon was turned on.

okay, i think my classmates are a bunch of despos.okay most of them.the other people on the trip are too! siao siao! my classmates crazy over chantell larh.remember chantel the female instructor? siao larh.when we left, they took like seventeen pics of her waving at us.despos.then there was sarah.our hotel RECEPTIONIST.siao.they all can camp downstairs for hours just to look at her work larh.and they take pics of her working larh.siao siao! you all never see girls before arh?

aussies eat a hell of alot larh.i gained two kg! must quickly get rid of it.haha.sian.go back to school liao.i dont want!!! haha.this blog took half an hour to write/type.

2005-07-09T23:44:00.000+08:00

wtf.im still injured.this isnt fun.nationals is next week! argh.stupid daniel.57!!! crazy.stupid fluke.shit.my elbow is still in extreme pain.aim for nationals: that gold trophy.

on friday we pon school and went to watch a div jav finals.wah kao.that daniel.warm up throw is like 52? 50? crazy.then first throw, boom, 57.its a crazy world! poor jingyang and lihao.well.they tried their best, despite being injured in the elbow.good job seniors!hey.who's that guy who got third? ive never even seen him before.lol.

haha.today's my mum's bday! we went out to have dinner at seoul garden and it was nice! aiya fat liao.i tried to eat as much protein meat as i could as scott told me that eating more protein will help my injury to recover.oh well.anything is worth a try rite now. *desperate state* then we went around that shopping mall and went to look in this nite market.there's this stall that sold something that looked alot like red bull.okay it IS red bull.hahahah.guess what.the brand name is called gold cow!hahahahahah!

my plate!

some frying pan i saw at courts or something...

Pirated Red Bull...

2005-06-29T18:10:00.000+08:00

woohoo.up till today my injury is still not cured yet.hopefully it will be better by next week.nationals is coming! so is the mrp deadline! arghh.i hate mrp.and i hate whoever was the one who thought of mrp as part of integrated humanities course.even the title integrated humanities sound stupid.arghh.im hating more and more of ip.

so much things to do! but no clear path at all.its just like, telling me to go forward and i will definitely reach the deadline of mrp, and in front of me its all fog and mist.up till now im still not very sure about my topic.i keep asking myself worried questions like, will i have enough sources? are my sources relevant? oh what the heck! is my mrp even relevant and interesting enough to make it??!!!

arghh.i hate mrp.i HATE mrp!

i HATE injury!

2005-06-24T22:02:00.000+08:00

wow...long break.seriously.i really love it! every single minute of my long break.although there are times when i felt that i was seriously ######## myself slacking away when its what, three or four weeks to nationals?

oh.i watched mr and mrs smith liao.hmm.wow.angelina jolie is hot.i think the show is not bad.husband and wife trying to kill each other? i liked the part when they shoot each other, then whack each other's a** and then have sex
-_-"

brad pitt: Ask me that sex question again.
(shows ten fingers)

wow.

2005-06-22T01:00:00.000+08:00

plaza sing was on fire! okay at least maybe just one small section? but there was so much smoke that filled up the whole building.so cool! then everyone was evacuated, and we were worried that we wont get to watch the show.shuo was damn angry la because of his one hour trip to plaza sing? aiya anyway, we were evacuated, and we were walking in the carpark, and then shuo came up with this bright idea that made us go through an exit door and into a dark stinky alley and end up in...the carpark again.wow.haha.then outside we saw like five fire engines? cool.and many policemen.we waited for like fifteen minutes? then we were allowed inside again.the first thing we did was to ask the gv people whether we can still watch batman begins.yea we could, delay five minutes though.then we passed our time by forcing taihao to take pics with us behind the madagascar board.damn fun lar! me and shuo take first, my head was the giraffe guy and shuo was the lion.then shuo force taihao to be the giraffe guy while i take pic.wah damn funny lar.laugh until mouth cramp.

okay then its the movie.batman was so cool!!! its the best batman movie lar.george clooney's batman was dumb, no matter what shuo says.this batman movie is zhai! and it ended like near twelve? haha.taihao said he was lucky, he didnt sit the last train home.he was worried when the announcement said last train, but it was the train across the platform.nvm.mine was the last train! good news for shuo.no train! he had to take a cab.too bad.

haha.what a fun night!

2005-06-18T10:17:00.000+08:00

ahhh...i got injured again.this sucks.i hate being injured.nationals is so near liao larh.still get injured? ahhh sian.injured means rest means no more training means will become lousy.ahhh...!oh well.hope it becomes better really quickly.in the mean time, homework! mug! oh wow.this holiday rocks. ...

2005-06-16T18:44:00.000+08:00

okay.finally found some time to do up my blog.its the june hols! and its ending...

so far what did i do.training.x marks the spot.a little homework.madagascar.thats about it.wow.what a miserable holiday.

but its okay.im gonna be four hundred bucks richer this holidays! haha.thanks to jon, eugene and qikun.our project rox.for those who havent heard, our project won two thousand bucks at x marks the spot.after giving one-fifth to our organisation, we still have loads left.okay to some four hundred bucks dont seem alot.to me, it is!!! im a poor guy.remember that.

okay.now i have to mug.three weeks are up.left one more precious week.one more.happy holidays to all my friends! now come to think of it.this holiday isnt so miserable after all.hmm...

2005-04-27T21:10:00.000+08:00

wah damn sian. failed chemistry.screwed maths.screwed chinese.probably screwed lit and english.and probably gonna screw maths and ihc.my world is seriously screwed.and i need money.to buy stuff i want.i need sleep.okay not much to say about life cos its pretty no life.

2005-02-16T17:22:00.000+08:00

damn lousy week larhh. jus after cny and all the tests start piling up. dis yrs valentines day was damn stupid. there was a test de next day, so spent vday studying. i think de tchrs are damn jian larhh. not only was vday horrible...de physics test next day was super screwed. so was todays lit test. shit! dis term is damn screwed larhh. den next week...maths test, chem test. chem i dun understand a thing. gonna flunk another test.

i need SLEEP! wifout sleep, i will b sick (which i probably am alredi) and i will not listen in class, no matter how hard i try (which isnt veri hard trust me) and no matter how hard de tchrs try (which is probably quite hard). today i cleared like 2 and a half tissue packets and half roll of toilet roll juz to clear my nose. my nose is damn screwed. see wad tests do to some ppl?

shit phua chu kang show is ending liaos larhh. next tues is de season finale part ONE. shitt. i love pck larhh. singaporeans shud support him lorhh. he is sooo funny! singaporeans shud support mark lee's police and theif oso! its oso damn funny! i lurve tues nites. dere's pck, police n thief, den there's CSI!!! csi is omg. veri zhai!

u noe wad? come to think of it. i think its a tchr's plot lorhh. to give us tests on de day aftr vday. tts damn stupid. can go n watch movie wan lorhh. shithead. budden ojy and haotian so pro. spend vday TRAINING. tts like, wow!

i think dis yr ortus council will collapse. juz look at the presidential candidates larhh. their impressions are so...cham! okay the first candidate...another ats, except he cant bullshit in his speech to make it as smooth as ats, his proposals are LAME, he dont even noe wad he wants, if he is elected arhh...wah kao. enuff said. okay second wan. so small, probably no one will listen to his rallies, tho he can talk man, but he looks boring. okay all de candidates R boring. the third wan, i din even bother to listen to him. de fourth wan, nobody listen to him, jus waiting for him to say thank you n we can say bye bye to de audi. ALL 4 R BORING PPL! dis yr de eota, die liaos larhh. wad...picnic arhh. den dey say wad ortus carnival muz make bigger...go eat shit larhh.

GOOD LUCK ORTUS.

2005-02-10T09:49:00.000+08:00

"People only start missing you when they have lost you ----- i guess its really easy to make you miss me"

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE! wish you all gong xi fa cai, nian nian you yu, xing xiang shi cheng, bu bu gao sheng, kuai gao zhang da, shen to jian kang, wan shi ru yi, xue ye jing bu, erm... still got what? no more tsunami, earthquake, volcano, tornado, typhoon, hurricane, sars, bird flu, disease, flood, fighting and whatever disaster! okay, now wheres my hong bao?

this year new year, i spend like over a hundred bucks on my new clothes. nearly 150 bucks eh! my most ex new year. my best clothes probably is my light blue op tshirt and my pink polo. lol. when i bought my light blue tshirt that time, the op stall aunty think i buy for a girl wan, cos its blue? cos its light coloured? but the damn design is nice! and which girl wears XL???!!! scary to think of one who does... alright. the pink polo right, i bought it just for cny celebrations in school. i had to persuade mum for like 10 minutes in the shop, then she let me buy. hahahaha. cos me and chang j had a deal to wear pink, cos our schools like, few guys can dare to wear pink anyway. but i like it man, so i will wear it quite often too. hahaha.

this year cny celebrations right, must praise the hcis students effort, in trying to fit in, or draw our attention. yarh the hosts were lame, but their performances quite nice larh, correct guys??? after the whole thing, 11 of us went straight to lido, went to watch constantine (:D zhai show!!!). lido was probably raffles homeground or something, so many rgs, ri, rjc. and there were many other schools too. lucky we din wear uniform or else very OUT-STANDING sia. only got gaobin wear uni, but he din stay long.

constantine was super nice larh! but the audience arh, tmd. still say english school people are more gentleman, well behaved or something. screw the hypocrites! anyways, everyone must watch constantine! because 1) i say its nice 2) its really nice! 3) its very exciting! so find a cinema with good sound system and screen to watch! 4) the girl police detective in the show very chio! (are girl police detectives this hot?) 5) the god and devil stuffo is really cool! about what jesus was stabbed by a spear, the spear can bring devils son to the earth, etc, those stuffo is cool! 6) keanu reeves damn cool too! his trademark matrix look, his cold humour, and his damn zhai middle finger to lucifer!!! 7) shows people what smoking can do to you, and your not as lucky as john constantine! 8) i like the angels vs demons stuffo happening on screen! the angelic man in the shop where john constantine's fat friend died was super cool man! spreading his pure white wings to protect the dying man from that demon... seh man! 9) the weapons also damn cool! 10) dont leave the cinema when the scrolling start! you will see what happen to constantine's friend/disciple/apprentice/assistant/taxi driver/one time saviour/one time partner... he was super cool! he died right? so he was sent back to earth by that cool dude up there, to watch over us... so now go watch constantine!!!

remember to watch ah? hmm...screw the teachers for giving us so much homework larh. plus tests also. what kind of cny HOLIDAY is this. sighs. anyways, i heard that evanescence is working on their 2nd album (finally!!!) so im like, looking forward to it, hoping it will come out real soon. their previous album is still really cool, but i wanna hear more! and i want harry potter movie to come out faster (thats in june btw)! and i want harry potter and the half blood prince to faster come out too! and i want chelsea to lose 3 points cos of their stupid illegal approach to ashley cole! and i want barcelona to maintain their position, dont lose to real madrid! aiya, so many things, must go for something more practical...i want/need/hopefully can finish all my homework plus test-studying!

2005-01-25T16:44:00.000+08:00

"Pray for the victims and survivors of the tsunami disaster"

i think ive gotten the hang of school life once again. yarh, n i mean getting back fails, barely passes, tons of work, n a extra tiring trainings. n again i go back to my sleep in class attitude. yarhh sure i should not do that, but who can stop your brain from shutting down? okay, i rephrase it, which would you prefer, sleep? or paying attention n not really understanding everything? get my point? probably not. :D

yarhh great yay another ihc group research thing. i just realise that the ihc teacher is damn slack. chan hs or something. she never teach at all. just make us do presentation after presentation. im so sick of it already, and its only the second wan. worse, HOW COME NOBODY TELL ME GOT CHINESE TEST! shit. 2 days to study. so difficult larhh chinese. scream ah.

chinese new year is coming, but i havnt buy any new clothing. panicking liao. hopefully the nearer it is to new year the bigger the sale. hahah. sorry larhh i not as rich as some people.

2005-01-03T16:51:00.000+08:00

ahahas. happy new year everyone! its already the 3rd day of 2005, i'm home in my brand NEW school uniform :D multi-tasking between chatting, blogging and watching a repeat soccer match. i think every singaporean soccer fanatic should and must watch the singapore vs myanmar 2nd leg match. it was crazy! i think the myanmar team was a little stupid to be so hot-headed. 4 send-offs, including 1 for the reserve goalie on the bench. their behaviour was super disgusting, like dirtying the kallang stadium liddat. at first they got chance wan lor, then they dont want the chance, gave it away, just liddat. TOO BAD.

today hor, although alot of people say that the classroom wasnt really cold and that the air con spoil already, i think it was pretty cooling. maybe cos i was sitting underneath the fan and next to air con. i think the air con not working. nevermind got fan. wah suck man i sick, cough until like shit, a little bit of fever, haiz. aiyo and i HATE kala. why must she be our form teacher again. even better, why must she even care about my hair. she dont even need to care lar. walk in front of honcw he also no comments wan lor. only she niao until like shit. typical ****** piece of shit. argh! fine.

2004-11-26T16:37:00.000+08:00

i just come back from throwers chalet. it was super fun! but very tiring for us sec3 people. we organize, plan, prepare, take care n do so many things together, just to make this chalet a nice wan. hope the sec1s and 2s enjoyed themselves. shall go ask the captain 'shuo' to upload me some pics from the chalet! yarh some are cheeky, but boys will always be boys.

day 1, we had training even when some of us already cannot move much, then went to the chalet on a chartered bus at noon. we were so busy packing and preparing and unpacking, but everyone was quite excited i think. the sky was black black, so we thought and i thought that it was gonna rain soon, so we started with the rainy weather game plans. it was fun, for the first hour, after that quite boring liao. i still remember the first game was charades, and basically its about us giving some juniors a phrase and then they have to act out the phrase to one another before the last wan gives the answer. we made them do quite a few ridiculous forfeits. the wan i remember the most was when we made wei leong call lihao on the phone to get tips on dating girls, it was hilarious. got lots more larh. the second game was musical chairs and the third game quite lame. i think the juniors sian very easily, because it didnt rain and we could have played basketball and soccer instead of the above indoor games, and also they were quite tired already. nevermind, my mistake. at night we let them watch johny english and asked some super weird questions, and those that answer wrongly have to do forfeits. by then at night, i think they were sian already, so it was good that we let them do whatever they wanted with the free time after the show. at least they were having fun and some of us sec3s could rest.

day 2, the most fun day! we went wild wild wet, and oh man, i love it there! the slide up ride was extremely fun and quite scary. but sight seeing is the best thing to do there. *wink* so many super hot girls there. and the sun was very hot too. most of us got sun burnt. in the evening, we had barbecue, the highlight of every chalet. the sec4 and jc seniors came back to have dinner with us. they talked alot and we had fun. oh and i learnt how to make fried rice! woohoo! i also learnt how to prepare barbecue, but the coal is so stupid, i still dont have much confidence in preparing one single-handedly. the funny part of the chalet was when timothy keep saying that the satay was not okay yet when we can see chao tar pieces all over. in the end you know what? some of the satays were just black pieces of, well, coal. at night, that's when the interesting part comes in. when the seniors all went home and the sec1s and 2s went back upstairs to watch movies, it was our turn to start cleaning up, which was a highly complicated thing. i dont know how some people eat, but they obviously cant aim properly, since there was so much crap on the tables. i like cleaning the kitchen though. from super messy to clean and tidy gives me some sense of satisfaction. the fried rice also made me super happy an satisfied, since it was the first time i really cooked anything other than instant noodles. yup i had alot of fun, but the sec3s were so tired, that the instant any of us lay down to relax when we went back to our room after cleaning up, we would fall asleep. soundly. i remember that i was the 2nd wan to bathe, before my bath, the lights were still on and everyone was awake and packing, ready to bathe after me. then after my bath, the lights were already off, everyone was asleep except for timothy, weiming and haoran. those people asleep were still waiting for their turn to bathe! weird.

day 3, in the morning we went jogging, and after quite alot of screw ups during our run, chen got quite pissed i think and told us off. oh well, expected. anyway, after some light breakfast at changi village, we rushed back to the chalet and quickly packed up. the everyone said goodbye and it was a fun chalet ended. then there was a problem, when we didnt know what to do with the tent we borrowed. not any ordinary tent, it was some really big tent that covered the whole bbq pits, actually, the whole bbq area, so its really big and heavy, and we dont know what to do with it. in the end, shuo and me took a cab and brought it to his house. his house is quite nice, except for the anduril sword on his wall, which nice was an understatement for it. then the ride back home on mrt, which was horrible, super long! from pasir ris okay. no joke. i tried very had not to sleep wan lor.

so there we have it. our throwers chalet. it was probably screwed, but i think it was really nice. at least i had fun.

2004-11-15T02:31:00.000+08:00

haha... this is the 3rd week of holiday. i think. is it? maybe tomorrow's the 4th week already. oh well, quite a few trainings have past, loads more ahead. yet another boring holiday. oh by the way, anybody who can get their hands on this song's clean mp3 please email me. the song i want is 'on the way down by ryan cabrera'. yar, i double-checked the spelling. thanks.

man utd just ended a cruel run of misfiring, losing to lowly portsmouth and drawing with man city. luckily, they beat newcastle 3-1, all hail rooney! ruud van nistelrooy is still a great puzzle to me. how come he playsso well and prolific on the european stage, but in the english league he can only convert penalties and nothing else? oh well, i really hope ruud improves his domestic game. shall pray more for him. *prayer*

2004-10-31T01:14:00.000+08:00

oh yes! holiday start already! but i'm so disappointed. man utd larh! they were so good they beat arsenal last weekend! and somemore end their unbeaten run. but then, what a thing to lose to portsmouth! bad luck? complacency? or maybe they are super tired. whatever it is, man utd is lucky that arsenal could only manage a draw with southampton. but still, this is probably their worst season ever. good luck ferguson and co.!

oh yarh, on thursday right, we had this hike from bukit timah hill to mandai zoo. it was very fun man. but then it rained, so its quite dull. however, outdoor activities are always fun. so i guess this is probably the best activity so far. somemore i get to sit taxi home. woohoo! dunno how long never sit taxi le. after the activity i was too lazy to take bus or mrt, plus my shoes so muddy and i so smelly, might as well get home quick for a shower.

and on thursday, it was shuo's birthday! too bad he didnt wear the pink singlet. it would have been very funny. but nevermind, the slippers enough le. lol. hot pink slippers!

i finally started playing ffx2 today. the world of ffx2 is huge! so many missions, both optional and compulsory. i'm still stuck at my third mini mission that's totally optional. but the girls are cool. yuna is hot! super hot! and best of all, she only loves tidus, and that is so sweet. *spoiler* rikku's brother, named brother ('_' ") likes yuna. definitely. but he looks weird anyway. so thank god she loves tidus only. and rikku, become super cute. her attitude and character didnt change at all. still super cute, except now she looks even more cute! paine, wow, one super cool girl. she got the character of lulu, the super quiet, very focused kind of girl, but she is super cool! especially her sword. when she pose, she looks very good with the sword. looks that can kill, and she can still kill anyways. oh yarh, yuna looks super hot in whatever dress sphere you put her in! even in black mage dress, think of her like a super duper chio scarecrow. okay, that one probably didnt work out, but nevermind, put her as a gunner and she will be super hot already.

holiday can only mean one thing. training! probably 3/4 of my holidays are taken up by training. wow. better start resting loads today. thats it, i shall go sleep. oh yarh, yuna is hot!

2004-10-26T23:31:00.000+08:00

post exams are quite okay la, but i just dont like our end of year activities planned by the ortus council!!! i would rather sit in an LT and slack ya! but they make dunno what ortus carnival and trekking. okay lor, the carnival is not bad, but now i think it totally sucks because we couldnt even have a say in the activities and stalls we were going to set up. all our stuff decided by ortus council and onglaypeng. f*** them la. liddat where got fun? haunted house? in day time?! wah very scary leh ortus council!!! den you all want to make us lose money is it? who will buy fruit juice wan, especially when its as ex but smaller than those in the canteen? somemore, people will prefer soft drinks lor, so its like totally controlling us. i hate ortus council!

now somemore got some lame hike. from bukit timah hill walk all the way back to macritchie. very fun mehs?! its just walking lor! walk also fun arh? then somemore, must go all the way to macritchie, then take bus back to school for training. what the hell!

now this activity not ortus council fault. finally! sighs. who plan the personal grooming wan? siao! too rich is it? dunno how to spend money arh? give people who talk crap for $350 per hour. then somemore so lame the programme. groom us into gentleman for what? you see our school still got so many lame and immature people who look 15 but probably is 5. or 6. STILL at the "i dont friend you liao" age. even if they be more man, its just hypocritical! ( dont understand hypocritical? i spell for you you ownself go check dict you wan?) its just lamer in sheep's skin. so, what the hell. waste money lor. the school think we damn rich la. then dunno their students needy fund is for what. kena swallowed by teachers liao la.

2004-10-21T22:50:00.000+08:00

omg im extremely bored. today i just watched the second episode of the super nice swimming show on channel 8 9pm. i think its very nice, with all the chiobus! jeanette aw is super chio! i like her character's sister too. toro's hairstyle very nice (do that sure kena caught wan, like today)! ah still got what, nothing else le.

today's singapore idol episode is one of the best lah. olinda cho FINALLY wore a dress! and her voice suits loads of different genres la. so qiang! i love leandra's song today. the late Selena's wan, dreaming of you or something. think its called dreaming of you. super nice. christopher lee very good today. sylvester's rock song very nice too. hmm. aiya, i love today's show la!

2004-10-18T22:41:00.000+08:00

hey i got back all my exam papers today. like shit. first, stupid vincent tan go and make the chemistry paper checking earlier, from 10.40am to 10am. then i was like still at home by 9.45am. what the hell, had to take a cab to rush there. then somemore the cab driver zha bo wan, drive damn slow. i was thinking oi! faster lei!. then when rush there liao, wah lau, first thing i see is a big fat C5 for my chemistry. wah lau study until vomit blood and this kind of results. what is this! its so unfair lah! mark until liddat, dont have this part then whole question ha beis! wtf lah. its so unfair. then weichung so power, can get 80! upstair that old man in heaven go holiday liao lah i tell you.

then hor, come english. another heart attack. at first take back paper one the second part hor, not that bad, 22 upon 30, then the rest, all of them drop faster than when somebody jump floor (in chinese). by this time, i want jump liao, then i count count count, heng ah! B3! not that bad marh. okay, dont jump first, see physics.

tanhy damn smart lah, say in 3I classroom. apart from a few people, i basically hate 3I. they are just another bunch of smart faggots. okay nevermind them. heng ah my physics not that bad, 70 lei. okay lah, counted as not bad le compared to the rest of today. so physics, lucky!

then chinese. wah shit, i at first thought my zao ju can get a few marks wan lor, but then, i get 1 mark in the end. what the hell! must lower the maximum marks to 2 then can pass lei! 1 upon 15, power sia! then in front wan hor, i read the ci yu shou ce liao, still the same, fail! in the end, add everything up, only a miserable 123 upon 200. nice number, yarh, but not shuang. then chinese i cannot try get more marks, because, i dont understand chinese! if i'm so pathetic in chinese, why bother go look for more marks? B4 then B4 loh.

so i again 1,2,3,4,5 all got get. so nice. total 3.00. but then i estimate arh, should be able to pull the msg down until 2.00 or probably 1.4. hope can get 1.something larh. then very happy le.

when training that time hor, my juniors went to play chapteh, kena caught by chen. hehe! then he crazy, make them play chapteh until what, 5pm? siao! 3 hours of chapteh. reverse psychology??? then he catch this group of people playing soccer on the field, never wear pe tshirt. he so crazy, make them bury their own ball (soccer ball lah what you thinking?!) in the steeplechase sand pit and then dont know do what. haha, crazy. by the way, i couldn't throw today! totally no energy lah. at least saturday my jav reach 48m, but then today hor, wah lau, 44m only. then cannot even feel my proper er... movement or whatever.okay forget it, say technique hear also nobody understand wan. might as well, bitch about the rest of today. actually, i already did, so i'm gonna shut up and slack.

2004-10-18T00:35:00.000+08:00

oh man, my sunday is ending brudder! actually it already ended...technically. oh yarh people, i watch resident evil already! it was super nice, super shiok. dunno why the magazines all rated it what, 1.5 stars? what the hell. okay maybe its because its just fighting fighting and more fighting. but also, nice what. nc16 movie so shiok. somemore we got past the uncles so easily. they so lousy, and we are lucky that they are lousy. they didnt even stop us to look at our ic lah. lucky. this show is like, one of the must watch. yah, the first resident evil show is much better, but this one is good too! so many new films i wanna watch. wait, just to name a few, shark's tale!!!, the incredibles!!!, taxi!!!, blade 3!!!, cellular and...well, if i cant remember them, they must be lousy. the incredibles is a must watch for me. the trailer was so amazing! so funny! shark's tale too. taxi also! must watch okay?

saturday right, tchs had open house lah, then we TRIED to get everybody at the track to train from 8am to like, 3pm. in the end, well, quite lousy lah, but nevermind. the parents, so few people came. and then see their children liao hor, i keep thinking, "wah lau, they look like bai2 chi1 and they probably are, so what the hell". die liao lah. our track no hope liao, i think. for the future, hope is in the toiletbowl.

after open house right, we watched what sky captain and the world of tomorrow. wah, like comic liddat lah. sky captain...sound like captain america lah! wah kao. but, nice lah, considered its all made by computer graphics. i dont like the lighting, like very blur liddat lah.

then sunday, today, i watched new police story, because my uncle bought the dvd. super clear lah. and nice. i like the actress charlie yeung or something. i like the plot. very nice. i think the actress very chio lah, but not as chio as (her)! cya!

2004-10-13T23:56:00.000+08:00

today, i had oral defense for my major research paper. the judges were lily chai and tan jon lin. i was super nervous at first la. kept reading my points over and over again. then somemore i number 9 lei, so far away la. waited for damn long. then when my turn, i went in, present present present (think i spoke too fast, or too unclear, or maybe i was talking to the table???) then waited for the blasting to start. although they not very fierce, their questions were like, so what's new about your paper? why is this case study different from the rest? how come only singaporeans surveyed??? what the hell! like i know liddat la.

but luckily, my mrp most of it was on geography, then lily chai is (i heard) lit teacher, tan jon lin is history, so they probably know nuts about aging population except all the historical facts la. still, their questions make me stone la. i kept 'erm... er... because hor...' when actually i wanna say 'erpz...' nevermind, at least it ended quick. *phew* so exams are, technically, over! better play hard hard and harder before results come back!

2004-10-12T23:34:00.000+08:00

yo!!! exams are finally over! went to watch white chicks today. super duper funny! i loved that show. that was super duper stupid and funny. must recommend to more people to watch. the wayan brothers rule!

now after exams liao, i wanna watch loads of movies but no money :( i wanna watch resident evil apocalypse, sky captain and dunno what, taxi!, shark's tale. shark's tale seems nice, taxi also! hmm. plus got oceans twelve. wahh. cant wait, to save more money!

2004-10-06T13:34:00.000+08:00

ahh... my exams... failing. hope i won't fail. just had chinese paper 1, english paper 1 and chemistry. oh man chemistry sucks. very difficult! now have to mug for physics. not much nice things to say right now. its just mugging anyway, how fun is that? but after exams, too much free time, dunno what to do liao.

2004-09-26T02:51:00.000+08:00

finally, after a whole week of mugging, i can relax a little and use the comp, after everyone in my home has slept. phew. i slacked alot today. went training, watch tv, sleep alot, stone even more, mug a little, and watch man utd vs tottenham (1-0 man utd win!)

sounds damn slack right? feel so guilty now. nevermind, tomorrow i pia and mug and pia and mug somemore. i still got alot of topics havnt finish lei, and kala still make dunno what shitty remedial. waste time sia. okay la, some are not bad. but those times when we stay back do SELF STUDY, what the hell la. now i know i cannot group study. the most 2 or 3 serious people. must be SERIOUS, and damn quiet.

bought a new kind of was this week. was damn shitty. have to tahan for a month? maybe two? dammit.

borrowed this book in my school library. it's the king of torts by john grisham, and its really quite nice, and i was like, so excited about the story. its no action la, but all the twists and turns very nice. recommend that book to people who need a good read.

training today was so damn boring. only 3 people go training. so boring! no mood until after training, i went straight home. didnt even attempt to hang out or something. too bad.

2004-09-18T23:47:00.000+08:00

did cip today at the singapore river just outside uob plaza. omg it was a really tall building! today's cip wasn't too bad. see all those with me today stood to benefit! i hate hate HATE lousy attitude juniors! xing yun, chang j, jeremy, eu jin, they suck! just don't show their seniors ANY respect, or whatsoever!

today, when we (my group) were waiting to be briefed, xing yun and chang j ran to the watsons opposite to buy stuff when i already told them NO, and they just don't care and went off. what the hell! hey man chang j, don't bloody hell think you are cool, because you're NOT! you're just being totally DAMN BLOODY HELL IMMATURE! xing yun, no hope la! go to hell! shuonan was super lenient to them, 150 only?! added another 3 rounds of wheelbarrow for the both of them. heavy? exams? i don't BLOODY HELL GIVE A DAMN!!!

jeremy and eu jin, i thought they were okay, but in the end, they were just too god damn disrepectful to seniors! okay, normal name callings and stuff like that is tolerable, but what the hell?! today's behavior was SHIT. they just totally don't give seniors any respect huh? all that crap that chen says bout juniors giving us respect only when we respect them = BULLSHIT!

i'm so damn relieved when i could get away from slacking in a hot carnival when shuonan told me, edward and jieyu to go help out to shift things. after shifting, we were supposed to go with the uncle to shift more stuff back at their 'headquarters'. chang j went off, and i'm not going to give a person like him something SO NICE, so i went to look for a good junior with totally nothing to do = jieyu. the 3 of us went onto the uncle's lorry at the back, and enjoyed our ride to the monastery. there we ate, shifted stuff, stoned, then rode to rjc, to shift their stupid dragon dance stuff. after that, it was a very very VERY relaxing ride back to the carnival. all of the rides were at the back of the lorry. super FUN!

i love the scenery at night. i love sitting by the river at night, doing nothing, staring, thinking. and i had the opportunity to do that today! relaxing there is REALLY NICE, and i enjoyed every moment of it. it was cooling, and everything nice. totally! the night relaxation ended my cip experience this year.

2004-09-16T20:34:00.000+08:00

singapore idol wildcard show now! ahh beverly, maia and shirin all rox. oh man. nothing to say today except for eric and shang ji's fight.

how immature and stupid are they? eric also abit chong1 dong4 la. but shang ji got NOTHING better to do and go and ga1 jiao1 eric with dunno what SAUCE. OMG! so!damn!lame! now i know why girls say guys take like, the longest time to grow up. yarh, i'm still a small kid, but what the hell, PLAY WITH SAUCE??? and then, another stupidly immature act, shang ji go and thrash it out not on eric, but on his cd player?! ok la, he can't touch eric so much because we were preventing them from fighting somemore. but, what the hell, cd player?! if it was me, i definitely thrash it out. cd player lei! just like that, throw on the floor, then gone liao. broke.spoilt.useless.can't play.(must i say somemore?) tomorrow in class got show to watch liao la! yea man!

shang ji, so damn idiotic, say sean lai is a idiotic faggot, he himself also the same la. pot calling kettle black. birds of a feather flock together. (what else?) what the hell.

2004-09-15T20:21:00.000+08:00

today is so boring. but the assembly talk by singapore's mount everest man was the most interesting stuff. he was very funny! and his story is extremely amazing, and inspiring! we don't have to like mountain climbing to be inspired by him, his adventure grand slam is an extremely amazing feat, and i think if you want to succeed, you must DARE TO DREAM!!! (adventure grand slam = highest mountains in each of the 7 continents plus mount everest, the North Pole and the South Pole) he also went to cycle from singapore all the way to beijing! his achievements are really groundbreaking, and makes singapore proud.

studied chinese ting xie in the library today, but the others are so distracting! quite irritating. tomorrow ting xie die liao larh!!!

2004-09-14T19:43:00.000+08:00

back to school! 2 days are over man, and i hate it. so boring!!! our class rocks! last class in sec3, average msg 4.44, still can heck care one. not bad rite? the true blue last class is us, the others are just fake copies.

exams are coming, plus a surprise in the form of oral defense. shit! i hate oral defense. my revision for exams has just started, and i'm dying. still, must survive and struggle, and get A1s!

how come 3L seems to have so much yuan2 with vincent tan? monday chemistry, tuesday triple chemistry, tomorrow??? sighs.

a shout out to ALL the friends of this smallkid here : good luck for your exams guys! study hard and jia all the you okay? all the best!

2004-09-12T21:32:00.000+08:00

AHHH!!! tomorrow go back school le! look at my blog man! school SUX! okay, i only like ep3 (cca) and slacking with my friends. but other than that, school SUX. and exams are coming.

today, last day of holiday, is so boring. all i did was learn ting1 xie3 for the whole afternoon (my chinese SUX la, what's wrong with spending hours on ting1 xie3), slack, eat, sleep and play. watching loads of tv, and watching presidents star charity now. quite nice lei actually. so poor thing, all those still doing homework. sighs. i promise myself liao, i must go ask all the teachers tomorrow for all the topics that will be tested in exams. MUST start liao!!! but i want to watch dodgeball, garfield and the terminal, especially garfield, but you don't want to...

2004-09-12T10:24:00.000+08:00

yesterday there was only one thing that i was happy about, the track and field anniversary! but then when i got there, i was a bit disappointed by the number of people who went. even though it was not compulsory, still so little people go. less than a hundred, and die, heard that shuonan and tzesiong ordered food for like, two hundred thirty people?!!! nevermind, very little people also can have fun wan.

the handover ceremony was okay la. okay, it is a ceremony where the previous committee members (sec4 this year) handover the duty to the new committee members (sec3 this year). last year it was an extravagant thing, with very very nice decoration, and nice candles for the committee members to pass over to each other. this year, all though we only had like, green coloured paper rings that the seniors are supposed to put on our heads, and we had to give them flowers in return. the hcjc seniors had nicer looking stuff. they had leaves on their rings lor.

okay, the food was nice. although the egg thing that shuonan recommended taste like shit. can't blame the caterer company, now chicken eggy raise price le, they can't cook much. so more cabbage in there than eggs. o wells, the other food is okay la. i especially like the chicken, and the french fries. we had sooo much food left! the alumni seniors ate, the hcjc seniors ate loads too, our seniors and us ate even more, still cannot finish. so we had to ask those SUPER hardworking people in hcjc who stayed in school till the sky dark to study for exams, to go eat some stuff for us, like supper la. even the fella who come to pack up everything from the catering company also help eat. we even da baoed some food. still cannot finish. too bad lor. hope the money that all of us paid is enough.

after dinner, guess what, no games?! so we only can past time by shifting all those tables and chairs. hard work sia. lucky the uncle smart, keep the water last. he finish keeping the food first, then we pack finish the tables can drink first before he empty it and keep. thanks man!

we went home quite early lor, compared to past years, but can la. still had some fun. the hcjc jiejie who walk home with me say that they planned like, very fast and this is suan4 quite successful le. it's their first event anyways, so should jiayou them. the jiejie also taught me their burger burger game which i saw the seniors play at the anniversary. lol

after reaching home, i watch tv like siao. so many nice shows at night. got comedy, ghost show, and monster thriller. watch until 2 plus. super nice. fan3 zheng4 me and my ma don't want to sleep because sleep le means tomorrow come le, means next day monday must go to work/school. WAHHH siann...

2004-09-10T23:05:00.000+08:00

today super tired. so little people went for training. so many people sick, or slack. training so sian because of so lack of fun people. we saw the st nick's chinese orchestra come our school with our school chinese orchestra playing water bomb somewhere in the sidefield. '_'" chen wasn't there for training, so we were basically slacking and sharing cold jokes (leng3 xiao4 hua4) all the way.

after training, went j8 to buy steven's track anniversary present. didn't know what to buy, so i look and look in comics connection and mini toons. finally, bought something from minitoons and something from comics connection. i think this present buying thing is stupid. nevermind. still super sian up till now. want to study but don't know where to begin. better ask my teachers on monday what are tested for each subject.

after buying my stuff at j8, i went to seven-11 to buy a chestnut drink, and went to the nearby cc to do my favourite thing - stoning. i think stoning helps alot. i stoned in the bus too. people SHOULD MUST stone more often.

2004-09-10T02:01:00.000+08:00

i'm still not sleeping. lol trying to recall the stuff that i left out. okay, there's one. at woodlands library today, when i arrived (late), i saw jeffrey with a girl. that's something new! of course i was in a rush so i didn't stop to say hi or anything. too bad they went to the higher levels to do whatever they came to do. *winks*

oh yarh, after the wheelbarrow stuff, both my palms had huge blisters on them! one was like, one inch long! n they were really irritating with all that water and stuff inside. when we went bowling, i accidentally broke one blister, by like using it to support myself.*piak* and water all over my palm. i tried to do the same to the bigger blister, but fail. so i went home and immediately found ma's sewing needle and started poking ten holes in it. by then, all the water come out already. by now (2.00am), its all dried up. hope before training tomorrow it will be alright liao. okay, good night!

2004-09-09T20:44:00.000+08:00

watching singapore idol right now. i love singapore idol! must vote for olinda! and the guy in the second group who made it into the top 10. what's his name? can't remember. he is super cool!

yesterday, chen gave us wheelbarrow because the juniors la, dunno how to hurry up. so we had to wheelbarrow from the swimming pool junction that place up to the clock tower. damn far! can't even see our finishing line from the starting. we sec3 supposed to kena double but chen let us off. *phew*

today, i finished my MATHS homework. in the end, stayed in the library for only 1 hour plus. then wanted to go watch movie with wenjie,qikun n shuqun. but then, we go what, bowling, and i suck at that. i go to roll balls in the long1 gang1 only! whatever, someone had to be last position anyways!

there goes my hols pocket money! $20 bucks only lor! 1 burger king meal, 1 kfc meal, 2 bowling games, 1 pair of tissue paper socks for bowling, gone liaos!